I need some serious help.. me and the guy I'm in love with are having our little fights all the time.. we don't fight over big stuff just little things.. we have been together for a while and things have been getting worse.. i mean yesterday morning we were fighting over nothing really.. i mean it had to have been nothing because i don't remember what we were fighting over.. but i mentioned that if he loved me then he would tell his friends and family about me.. i mean its been months.

.. and still he has not told anyone but his brothers and sisters.. he hasn't told his mom.. yeah he has a reason not to.. his mom is racist against white people because they killed her family member or something like that.. but my mom doesn't look at my boyfriend any different.. i mean hes black and I'm white. but my mom don't care as long as i am happy.. anyways getting back to the fight. i told him that if he really loves me like he says he does then he needs to tell people about me.. in my eyes i think he is ashamed of my color or afraid to let people know that he loves. me.. am i wrong for thinking that? i told him that if he wasn't gonna tell anyone about me then he needs to let me go because when ur in love you should want to tell the whole world about it.. and that's how i am with him.  i tell all my friends and family.. even if they talk mess about it i don't care i don't listen i just tell them if you love me and if you respect me then you would not care about who i date just as long as i am happy.

I don't know.. but anyways he told me that he didn't want to be with me anymore because i am pressuring him to do something he wont ever do.. i have changed alot for this guy and all i want is to know how much he really loves me. i mean he cant keep it a secret forever. am i wrong for doing that? well about an hour later i tell him i don't want him to worry about it. i don't care if he don't tell anyone about me.. as long as he didn't leave me.. did i do the right thing?

Later on that night we were talking about something again and we were arguing and i asked him why he didn't leave me and he said because he loves me.. i told him are u sure that is why you didn't take me back because i was talking crazy? and he said no the reason why i took you back is because you were talking crazy and i don't want anything to happen to you because i love you.. then we started talking some more and he told me that he thinks we should only be friends.. and i told him ok i understood.. and i would be here if he ever wants to talk to me.. I'm just a phone call away.. yeah i was crying but i wasn't trying to let him know.. i told him i will always love him and no guy can take that from me.. well we were sitting there and he told me something funny.. and we started laughing.. then he said i don't want to lose you.. i told him i don't want to lose him either.. he told me that he loves me and my heart felt like it dropped or skipped a beat.. i love him with all my heart.. i need some help.. am i doing the right thing for being with him? i mean i love him... but i don't know if I'm making the right choice.. i feel like i am because hes the only guy that can make me smile all day long by the stupid stuff he does.. someone please give me advice..

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